My last six hours have been hell. I just want it to stop, why can't it just stop. Oh god, it hurts so bad. The vi.c.odin isn't helping, and I'm in so much pain I can't sleep. I tried screaming, and it helped at first. It helped a bit for a couple of hours actually... it isn't helping anymore.
I passed the sac when it started. It was bigger than I was imagining it would be. I thought about getting it out of the toilet so I could bury it in the back yard, but I decided against it. I regret that now. I wish I had got it out. Oh, I'm never going to forgive myself for that.
I know that if I didn't use the cy.tot.ec and miscarried naturally I would be in just as much pain, or almost as much pain... so I don't regret that. But it does have me rethinking how strong I am. I don't think I can do this again. Oh god, it hurts. I'm in so much pain I think I am going to be sick. I don't think I have it in me to do this again, I really don't.