I meant to hold off on testing until tomorrow, but A neglected to hide the tests from me. I have the worst willpower, and that man is such an enabler. Gah. Fail! So, of course it was negative. 11dpo, and while that's still early I feel a bit down. I was actually pretty hopeful for this cycle, I kept trying to keep myself grounded but I was really hoping.
I'll retest in a couple days, but I'm not very optimistic at this point. I know, I know: ra ra ra, it's still early! don't give up hope! I would rather start mentally preparing for the next cycle though. Sorry! If things change, well, AWESOME. I would love to have my pessimism thrown back in my face! As it is though, I'm going to prepare for the worst. I know it's still early, but with my history I know when I need to start preparing. It's 11dpo and I used a test with a sensitivity of 10... so, yeah, it doesn't look good. We can still cross our fingers for a late implantation, but I'd rather start the process towards acceptance. I'd rather have a happy surprise than a huge let down. any. day.
I'm going to the zoo today with my friend and our kids, so hopefully that will take my mind off things. It's a beautiful day; the sun is shining, it shouldn't be freezing, and some fresh air will do me good. Hopefully we don't have any unexpected issues. With the way my luck has been going, and those damn gremlins I seem to bring with me, you never know!