Friday, April 29, 2011

Today-

I am a day more pregnant than I've ever been in my life.

If I make it to tomorrow, I'll officially have reached 6 weeks.

I keep getting gas pains, and then I can't tell if it's gas cramps or my uterus is cramping. Or both. And then I spend all night trying to find a comfortable position to lay in and worrying. I've been taking acetaminophen to get through the nights.

I also keep freaking out over every cramp and twinge. I expected to wake up to blood this morning because I was really crampy last night, but there was just some brown spotting. Which of course still freaked me out some, but that can't be helped. I haven't noticed any spotting this afternoon... but the day's still young.

Yesterday I stopped wearing pads all day, since I haven't had a lot of spotting for a few days now. I feel like I'm inviting disaster into my life by doing that, like I'm tempting the universe.

I'm still charting on my Fertility Friend chart, because I still expect this pregnancy to end any minute now. I charted through the miscarriages of my last three, just for a record of my meds and to keep track of the spotting/bleeding for all of them. So it's good for me to keep track of that this time too, but I feel like maybe I'm being a little OCD about it now. I don't care, I'm going to keep putting the data in for now.

I'm really weird, I know.

I think my progesterone supplements have finally gotten my levels up a little in my entire body, because I've started passing out during the day. Which totally screwed up my sleep pattern, and I do not like waking up at 5am. But by about 4pm, and then again at 7pm, I just can not keep my eyes open. But, I'm taking it as a good sign. I think.

I almost feel like I'm pregnant.

Almost.

Let's see if I can make it through the weekend.

12 comments:

Rebecca said...

Good Luck! Hoping this one sticks!

Lissie said...

You can make it. You are doing GREAT! No matter what you are doing everything possible!

blueeyedtawni said...

loving the updates!!!!!!!! more sticky thoughts!!!! you are doing great :)

MrsSpock said...

It was about at 6 weeks that I started becoming a zombie with both pregnancies.

One hurdle jumped- now on to the next!

Stinky said...

whoop whoop stickiness whoop whoop!

abracadabrababy said...

Breathing along with you and wishing you all the best!

'Murgdan' said...

Holding on to hope for you...and still find myself holding my breath every time I read an update. :-)

Kristin said...

Holding on tight to hope! I have to say I am cautiously optimistic at this point. But, like Murgdan, I hold my breath and hesitate before I click on each update.

Celia said...

Dude. I am so nervous and excited for you. And scared. But eff that, I am throwing my hat in the ring for HAPPY! Nothing bad has happened yet!

BU said...

You're doing great! Hang in there. Of course you're nervous. Of course. You're in my thoughts!

Celia said...

Are you ok?

AnotherDreamer said...

Celia, I'm okay. Just waiting, will post later.