Saturday, April 16, 2011

Waiting-

- I'm biding my time until the repeat blood test tomorrow. The cramping and bleeding was worse last night, bright red and cramped all evening after my Lovenox injection. It seems to have calmed down so far today, but it's usually not as bad when I first get up anyway.

- I've been laying on my couch watching anime all day (why yes, I am that kind of geek). It lets me escape reality for a little bit, so it's all good. I even get a few good laughs.

- The clinic called me this morning while I was asleep. Apparently my TSH is a bit high again, so they want me back on Synthroid... okay then.

- Some wondered about my clinics stand on progesterone... they don't test for it if you're on supplements already. They assume that's all you need, and are extremely hesitant to test it or up your dose. This may sound harsh compared to other clinics, but my last clinic (the prominent one in our state capitol) won't even prescribe progesterone supplements to prevent miscarriage. When I had my second miscarriage my old RE handed me a paper saying why they don't test for hardly anything, and the article refuted progesterone use as being... well, useless. He refused to give me progesterone support after my 8 day LP on the failed injectable cycle... it's one of the reasons I left that clinic. So while my current clinic isn't as up on progesterone use as other clinics, they at least prescribe it.

- I feel like a junkie. I'm up to around 10 pills a day. Plus an injection. Yay me.

- The Lovenox left a painful bruise on me. Bah. I'm going to try icing it afterward too, instead of just beforehand.

- I called off work tomorrow night, even if I thought I could handle it physically... I don't think I'd do so well emotionally.

- The spotting wasn't as bad this morning, but as I said it usually isn't first thing in the morning. The last few days, it's been a cycle. As the day wears on the bleeding and cramps increase, then when I wake up there isn't any cramping and the spotting has decreased. Then the cycle repeats as the day wears on. We'll see if it does again tonight. I can already feel some mild cramping... so I guess I'll just wait and see if it gets worse tonight.

- I'm not counting on a miracle, but I'm not going out without a fight Even though I realize that this is likely a losing battle, I'm still giving it everything I've got.

8 comments:

'Murgdan' said...

Thinking of you...I can only imagine how hard this waiting around is, but it sounds like you've got a good plan going...esp with the 'fighting' part. Hang in there.

Melis.sa said...

Praying for you!!!

Lissie said...

Hugs!!! Thinking of you lots and sending all my positive thoughts your way. You can do this.

Mrs. Brightside said...

Thank you for your support on my blog -- it appears as though we are battle-weary soldiers sharing a foxhole, eh? The waiting and worrying and drudging up of past fears just sucks. I find myself doing okay one minute and in tears the next. I am hoping this is IT for you.

Kristin said...

Hoping, praying, wishing...I just don't want to see you go through this again. {{{Hugs}}}

iamstacey said...

Oh, Dreamer, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!

I'm so shocked on policies of both of the clinics you've visited! It took my clinic a while to start prescribing me progesterone, and I didn't know to ask for it. But once I did, they kept me on it even when they felt like I didn't need it anymore. But I knew in my heart that my body did need it! Those people need to listen to you!

I'm hoping that now that they've got your thyroid and progesterone going, this baby is going to snuggle in for the long haul!

Celia said...

Oh girl. I am thinking of you.

Christina said...

Way to go and keep fighting the good fight! I truly hope (and believe) it will pay off for you!