Thursday, April 28, 2011

One day at a time-

My hcg was 1,118 on Monday, and it rose to 2,761 today. That's a doubling time of 55 hours. Which is good... so just trying to take it one day at a time and see what happens.

This is how far along I was with the second pregnancy when I lost it, although my hcg that time was much higher. So obviously I'm anxious as hell today, and I keep cringing at every cramp and checking for blood every time I use the bathroom. It's scary, and I'm not going to pretend it's not. This is the most pregnant I've ever been before, and at the same time it isn't since the hcg is lower.

No matter what, I know that I am far from being out of the woods.

I have an ultrasound scheduled for Monday. I have a really hard time believing I'll make it that far.

After I scheduled it I realized that it's on May 2... that's near the day I ended up in the ER 3 years ago miscarrying the first one. I had an ultrasound back then too. It didn't go so well.

Deep breaths, one day at a time.

17 comments:

Mrs BabyDream said...

Stay positive. Everything is looking good :)

Bobbi said...

Praying for you!!! You got it right...deep breaths, one day at a time. :( I can't imagine how you are feeling!

Celia said...

NOTHING HAS GONE WRONG YET. Repeat. Thinking of you and your so small dumpling.

ousoonerchick said...

Today you are pregnant and for that be greatful!!!! I have a pregnant friend that has lost three and says this everyday and everytime she starts to freaks out. You can do this babe!! Hang in there!!!!!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I am so glad things are going well so far, but I know all too well the feelings of tension and anxiety. Celebrate each day the things that did go right today. Fingers crossed TIGHTLY for your ultrasound.

Stinky said...

Thinking of you, and still hoping . . . . time for a happy ending, huh?

Melis.sa said...

Waiting with you. Hoping May 2nd may hold a new meaning for you. a brighter one :)

Nicole said...

Look ahead, stay focus and +.

:hugs:

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Lissie said...

Lots of hugs!

blueeyedtawni said...

i give you lots of happy thoughts to think on. lots of sticky vibes to continue. your online friends will worry for you :)

lots of hugs!!!!

Kelly said...

Try to remember thta this pregnancy is different from any other. I tried to repeat that to myself often. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't.

I'm hanging onto the fact that this is looking good at this point and I hope Monday gets here very, very soon.

MrsSpock said...

Hoping SO much for you!

Ducky said...

One day at a time. Fingers crossed and prayers headed your way. God do I understand running to the bathroom to keep checking and cringing at every cramp. ((hugs))

Sweet Georgia said...

I am keeping you in my thoughts. Just remember that this is a different pregnancy and that the numbers from this one can't be compared to any of the others. This little bean may have taken a little longer to implant and that is why the numbers or lower. Or, they are simply just lower. I know, well, I can imagine, that this must be incredibly difficult for you to go through because of your past, but take it a day at a time. Each day you pass is a success.

Rebecca said...

Thinking happy sticky baby dust thoughts for you. Fingers crossed you'll have good news on Monday!

Christina said...

One day at a time. One foot after the next.

Try and take comfort in the fact things are good right now. I know how hard that can be and how hard it actually is. I'm in that same boat right now. There isn't anything we can do to change the outcome so might as well enjoy it right?

Kristin said...

Great numbers, fabulous doubling time, and I'm holding onto hope for you. {{{Hugs}}} and prayers coming your way.