Monday, April 18, 2011

This year sucks-

So my twelve year old cat passed away in February.

I'm stuck in beta hell, for what I'm assuming will end up being my 4th miscarriage. The cramps were horrible tonight, and the bleeding worse... so whatever. I don't see how anyone can have cramps this severe or this much bleeding and still end up with a viable pregnancy. I feel like I'm fighting the inevitable, but I'm still fighting. The cramps are really intense tonight though, and I just want to curl into a ball and say fuck it all, my body just doesn't want to do this. It HURTS.

Then things got worse when one of our ferrets took seriously ill. We rushed him to the emergency vet today, but there was nothing we could do for him except stop his suffering. My poor Ahote :(

I worry about how our other ferret is going to handle this. He was her buddy, they've been together for 4 years.

I miss him already.

16 comments:

claire said...

so much shit to hit the fan at once! I am so sorry dear :(

I don't think ferrets like to be alone at all. Maybe another buddy?

Stinky said...

this is shite, hon. I have no magic words, but am reading and commiserating here

St Elsewhere said...

It is like everything is boiling and spilling over at the same time.

I am so sorry about Ahote.

You take care. Can't say much. If there is even one sliver of hope, I am holding it for you. You just focus on tiding through this.

Celia said...

Boo, you are just getting crapped on by the universe. I am so terribly sorry because surely it is more than one person should have to stand.

LisaL said...

Oh gosh. I'm so so sorry about everything! When it rains it pours ***HUGS***

abracadabrababy said...

I am so very sorry. About your kitty. And your cramping. And Ahote (I had a ferret growing up that was so very special). And especially sorry that you are dealing with so much at once. Sending big hugs -- hope that added in with the hugs from everyone else, you can feel them.

Lissie said...

That totally sucks!!! So sorry. Sending even more hugs!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I am so sorry to hear about Ahote. I have heard other ferrets do take it very hard... :( Thinking of you.

I am so sorry to hear about the cramps and bleeding. I hate beta hell so much...

Melis.sa said...

((HUGS))

I hope to God something works out positively right now for you!! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Stacy said...

I am sorry for your loss. I have two dogs that are my kids, so I can relate to the love. Hang in there. You have been in my thoughts and prayers!

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry that so much bad is hitting you all at once. Wishing I could give you more comfort than just a few measly words. Physical and emotional pain SUCK! (((HUGS)))

Kristin said...

Oh honey, I'm so damned sorry. {{{Hugs}}}

wifey said...

I am so sorry. The universe sucks. I hope your other ferret hangs in there - give her lots of love. I am so hoping your beta hell ends the right way.

St Elsewhere said...

Just letting you know that I AM praying for you.

birdsandsquirrels said...

I am so sorry about your ferret. I am in tears thinking the recent losses of your furry babies. I am so sorry this year has been so difficult already. I can only hope that the cramping and bleeding stop and you get a great number today. It's about fucking time you get something good your way. Thinking of you and sending all my good energy towards a lovely doubling beta.

iamstacey said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! He was just beautiful. I know there aren't any words to make it better, 'cause I've been there. I'm so sorry this happened now, with all you're going through.