So my twelve year old cat passed away in February.
I'm stuck in beta hell, for what I'm assuming will end up being my 4th miscarriage. The cramps were horrible tonight, and the bleeding worse... so whatever. I don't see how anyone can have cramps this severe or this much bleeding and still end up with a viable pregnancy. I feel like I'm fighting the inevitable, but I'm still fighting. The cramps are really intense tonight though, and I just want to curl into a ball and say fuck it all, my body just doesn't want to do this. It HURTS.
Then things got worse when one of our ferrets took seriously ill. We rushed him to the emergency vet today, but there was nothing we could do for him except stop his suffering. My poor Ahote :(
I worry about how our other ferret is going to handle this. He was her buddy, they've been together for 4 years.
I miss him already.