Monday, September 22, 2008

Get on with it

The infamous RE appointment is less than 24 hours away.

I'm nervous. I'm doubtful. I'm angry. I'm antsy.

Will he be able to help me? Will he turn me away?
Should I cancel my appointment if I (ha ha, yeah right) ovulate beforehand?

I don't know.
I'm so sick of not knowing what the future holds for me.
I know, I should get used to it.
Life is full of questions, not answers.

In other news, I think my left ovary is hurting again. Or something around there is. It seems awful early this time, it took weeks before it hurt last cycle. Hmmm. And no, it hurting means nothing. It hasn't the last few cycles (Unless I have a cyst that I don't know about, can we get another "Hmmmm?") The last two cycles I had some mild ovarian discomfort, awareness of their locale, but nothing ever came of it. Just a week's worth of discomfort.


Shelby said...

I'm sending you well wishes for the RE appointment. I've always found it to be a mix of being overwhelming and yet, newly hopeful. I hope the latter will prevail for you!

MrsSpock said...

I've had ovarian pain with O for years. My RE was planning a lap to check for endo if my injectible cycles didn't work, but we never got there.

Hope the appt goes well...

Penny said...

I hope it's a good appointment. If s/he doesn't fill you with a little hope and optimism, than he's not worth the thousands of dollars you're going to pay him. Sigh.

I have major ovarian discomfort every ovulation as well. I don't know why. I know it hurts. So, you have my sympathies.