Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Is this the beginning of the end

My 12dpo beta came in at 37, I do a repeat beta tomorrow. I'll get the results Friday.

However, I noticed a tiny amount of spotting last night.
And a little more this morning.

This pregnancy might be even shorter than my last one.

There's no reason I should be spotting. No progesterone suppositories, no intercourse, I put myself on pelvic rest actually. My progesterone levels seem fine even. There is no reason for the spotting that I can think of. Unless, of course, this is the end.

I guess we'll find out soon enough. At most we'll know by Friday. At least... who knows. I might find out in a few hours, or later tonight.

Yes, it could still be viable... but I'm not going to get my hopes up. I actually feel pretty numb right now. I don't know what to do with myself, all I can do is wait.

This sucks.

Edited to amend: The beta is in the normal range. And it was the first one. The spotting is what has me concerned... and tomorrow's beta. Should it double, awesome. If it doesn't... horror.

16 comments:

Tara said...

Oh, sweetie. I am very sorry. What was your first Beta?

You could just have a slow grower in there and everything will be fine. That's what I am hoping for.

Hugs

Kristin said...

{{{Hugs}}} and prayers.

Dora said...

Hang in there. I've been thinking of you. Big hug!

Penny said...

Oh god, I'm so sorry. I hope the spotting is nothing. Crossing fingers...

Jodi said...

no worries doll, your beta is higher then mine was at that time and the brown is old so no worries there either, frustrating but all will be ok hun

roadrise said...

I'm crossing every finger and toe that the beta numbers behave properly and continue to double.

Shinejil said...

Damn, this is tough. I hope tomorrow proves that the spotting meant nothing.

Bluebird said...

I'm so sorry sweetie. I'm sure the spottig is nothing, but I'm sorry you're dealing with this anxiety anyway. Will be thinking of you.

Missy said...

I know how scary it is to have spotting/bleeding in pregnancy. I'm hoping everything is OK. Lots of hugs to you.

annacyclopedia said...

Hoping that the spotting goes away and that all is well, that this is not the end but instead the beginning of a long and healthy pregnancy. Hang in there.

Celia said...

Still praying for you. It is not over till it's over.

Michelle said...

Sending good thoughts, prayers, hugs and anything else I can think of. I hope all is well tomorrow!

The Steadfast Warrior said...

Oh, I really hope it doubles!! I won't tell you not to worry, because you will. Your beta is definitely not too low, so try to have hope that it will double.

Thinking I you...

Good Egg Hunting said...

I'm so sorry you're in limbo -- sending doubling thoughts your way!

battynurse said...

I'm sorry about the waiting and all. It just sucks. Hoping that the next beta is great news and that the spotting goes away.

birdsandsquirrels said...

I wrote a big long comment that got eaten up when I went to post it. I can't remember what all I said, but basically, I'm thinking of you and sending good beta doubling thoughts your way. The waiting sucks.