I told a friend of mine that I was pregnant again. I sent her a message on F.aceb.ook. I don't like calling her because I know she's usually busy, she has a 4 month old and leads a busy life. So I messaged her.
Her response? "OMG congrats!"
I replied: "Thanks :)"
She then typed, "I told u it would happen."
Are you serious? I may have been a little catty in my reply...
It only took a couple thousand dollars, lots of high dosage hormone pills, plus insulin pills, and 8 months since the miscarriage... and there's still a chance of miscarrying again. I'm optimistic this time though. I dunno... part of me actually thinks I may have a baby this time. Of course, part of me know that the likelihood of that happening are slim... but we'll see."
But, I mean, are you freakin kidding me? "I told u it would happen."
Yes, it just magically happened all on it's own. And let's not forget how easily it can end. "It would happen" my ass.
I even wrote this to her prior to the whole thing...
"I had a bit of a scare the other night, but my blood work shows that my hormones are rising adequately and everything... so this one may just work out anyway. It's still really early though, so many things can go wrong."
I realize that she comes from a world where babies do not die, but she knows damn well they do. She knows I had a miscarriage last time. She knows about my sister's stillbirth. She knows, or should know, I am scared. Does she actually think I am getting a living baby out of this? Pregnancy does not equal a baby. Not always. No matter how much we wish it would.
I may be overreacting.
It just really pissed me off. Where the hell does she get off giving me an "I told you so" ???
In other news. I have another beta Monday. No spotting (yet) today. My left ovary is hurting something awful though, it's off and on though. Hopefully it will be okay.
I am 4weeks 2 days now. I miscarried at 4weeks 6days last time... let's see if I can get past that hurdle this time.
Stick baby stick!