The countdown-

I am holding out to test tomorrow at 11dpo (days past ovulation). I know, it's early- but I got my positives at 11dpo for the first two pregnancies, and 10dpo with the last one. My body seems to like that time line. If it's negative, I'll retest at 13dpo to confirm the negative. Then I will stop my progesterone supplements. But if it's negative tomorrow, I will feel confident that it is an accurate result.

But the waiting is hard, not just because I want to know (but also don't want to)- but also, my back hurts, and I would really like to take something stronger than acetaminophen. But I'm being a good girl and toughing it out. That's one thing I won't miss about trying to conceive- living your life like your pregnant, even though you aren't. If I was pregnant, I'd be fine and happy to do that. But I'm not... so it just pisses me off. I know, wah wah wah.

I really hate being in the homestretch for testing, I get antsy. I feel like I'm chanting to myself, "I will not test today. I will not test today. I will not test today."

If I click my heels while I say that, do you think that will help me make it come true?