Friday, July 23, 2010

Bitter-

I tested earlier today than I intended, mostly because my back really fucking hurts. And I really wanted to take something stronger than acetaminophen. It was negative, and I took some Naproxen Sodium. It probably won't help, I'm pretty sure I know what I did to my back (or rather my spine) again. Spinal inflammation sucks. It sucks bad. Sitting hurts, standing hurts, walking can hurt, and even laying the fuck down hurts. Getting up hurts. Everything I do hurts. I had spinal inflammation before, for a very long time until I got a proper diagnosis, and it felt just like this. Not cool.

I am pissy about the negative test, because honestly- I had no problem getting pregnant before, it was ovulating that was the issue. Now? What the hell?! I've ovulated 4 times in a row with intercourse timing (an IUI this time) and NADA. Nothing. Not even the hint of a fucking line. I know, I know, other women go much longer... but I managed to get pregnant on every other ovulation before. Now, nothing. It just makes me worry that something else is broke now. Even though all testing, surgeries, etc... showed nothing else being wrong.

Deep breaths. Whhheewww.

I'm in pain. I'm pissy. I'm most likely not pregnant. Again. And the heat index for today is 105... and I'm in a Northern state of the USA... so that's HOT for us... especially since we don't have air conditioning at my stupid house. I'm sad, angry, and melting... ungh.

8 comments:

Sarah S said...

Ugh, I am so sorry about your BFN, and when you are already feeling down to have that happen too, that sucks.

Sending you some pixie dust that it is just a little too early.

Celia said...

Well Eff. That is crap.

Dora said...

So sorry. It just sucks. And no a/c this Summer is absolutely brutal.

Connie's Confessions said...

Most women do not get a BFP until 14 DPO. Maybe still hope??? *hugs*

MK said...

Yuck, I know how you feel. I just got a BFN as well today (no shock there, though). But I'm always worried something else is wrong. I wonder what it would be like to have a normal-functioning body......

janis said...

(((hugs))) I am so, so sorry. This totally sucks.

'Murgdan' said...

:-( I'm sorry about the BFN. Also, I'm from the South, and 105 would be HOT for AnYoNe! Yuck! Cool off soon!

Kristin said...

Oh honey, I am so sorry.