Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My uterus-

My uterus should become a paid assassin. I'd make killing at the bank. Pun totally intended.

Beta dropped down to 15, so... as I said from the beginning, another chemical.

I'm not surprised.

I have already had a complete thrombophilia panel done. I was on low-dose aspirin for my PAI-1 4g/5g. My HSG showed no uterine abnormalities and clear tubes. Karyotyping on my husband and myself was normal. This cycle I did injectable medication, with dexamethasone to lower my DHEA-S and testosterone (hoping to make stimming better and egg quality as well), I did an IUI, timing was great and sperm count and motility were awesome, there were 2-4 eggs, I was on progesterone to support my levels after ovulation. ... and yet, none of that was enough for a viable pregnancy. So where does that leave us.

With more questions than answers.

Is it my eggs, is it my hormones, is it my uterus, is it something else like an immune issue?

I suppose the answer to those questions will officially decide where we go from here. Even if we don't keep trying, I feel like I need more answers than what I have.

But either way, we are at least taking a break until into January- maybe a lot longer.
Who knows.


AMC said...

I am sorry. Nothing I have been trying to come up with something to say that will help but nothing seems adequate enough. I am thinking of you and will keep checking in.

Michelle said...

I am so sorry! I am thinking that your uterus and mine should go into business together.

I hope you get the answers you need and DESERVE! I know the feeling of not knowing and it sucks!

April said...

I am so sorry, what a difficult path you've had.

Sweet Georgia said...

I'm sorry. I think taking some time off is a good idea. Take care of one another.

Me & My Life said...

I am so sorry...a tough time to cope up. Take care.

WiseGuy said...

Am sorry that your worst thoughts stand confirmed...and that this pregnancy is ending.

I think you SHOULD definitely take the break. It screws the head completely.

birdsandsquirrels said...

Fuck. I'm so sorry. And angry. The break is totally understandable and probably a very good idea. I hope that you guys are able to find the answers to your questions. Have they done a lap or hysteroscopy to check for uterine issues? Would your insurance cover that?

Bluebird said...

"I'm sorry" seems so inadequate, but please know that it is heartfelt. I know that doesn't make anything better. I know nothing will. I hate this for you. I so understand your need for answers. This whole situation is unfair, including the fact that you don't have answers. I hope and pray that you find them soon. ((Hugs)) honey. And thinking of you so much.