Show and Tell

I've saw other people's show and tells before, but never participated... so I am going to give it a try right now. Curious about show and tell? Check out this blog.

I lost my baby in May, I had a really hard time dealing with it. It took me a year to get that positive pregnancy test, and a week to lose it. I shut off, I broke down.

A few weeks later we found out my grandmother's cancer had come back in the form of a tumor next to her heart. They said she could live another year. A couple of days later I found out the cancer had also spread to her liver. They gave her a couple of months to live. The next day she was in a coma, a couple of days later she had passed from this world.

The month started out with me losing my child, and ended with me losing my grandmother.
I was hysterical at the end of the month. I was screaming at god, "Please, please! Why can't this month end. I don't want to lose anyone else, why can't it just end."

I was getting scared that it wouldn't end.

I bought a tree in memory of my baby, my lost one. At my grandmother's funeral I was given a lily plant, from her service. I planted the tree, and a few weeks later the lily plant was still in it's pot. It was dying. The tree was dying. Their leaves were drying up, withering, falling off.

I was losing everything all over again.

I planted the lily with my tree, I figured if it was going to die it would go down fighting.

I would give it a chance.


And soon I found hope.



These leaves sprouted from the base of the tree.

And the lily plant perked right back up too.



If they're willing to keep fighting, so am I.