I just got my HCG trigger in the mail, needle and all. I really hope I'll need it, because right now I'm not feeling it. I mean, my ovaries are usually popping by now with Clomid and I don't feel anything. That doesn't necessarily mean anything, but let's just say I'm short on optimism. But when am I not? We'll see how things go tomorrow though. If there's no follicles... well, we'll deal with that when we get there. If I'd kept my original appointment I would have went in today for a scan... but it's probably better that I rescheduled. I hope.
The cat has been doing better, but also not. He stopped eating again for about a day, but then started again. His surgery is scheduled for Thursday, assuming he passes the blood work. If his liver function is impaired, they'll recommend against surgery and probably recommend euthanasia. We're hoping the antibiotics have done their job well enough though, but we'll have to wait until surgery day to know for sure.
V has been grumpy lately. He's teething again (finally), so I'm sure that's not helping. We're up to 7 teeth, with one cutting right now. All incisors (primary and bilateral). We also started transitioning him to his own room... yeah, he's 16 months now and I still haven't gotten him out of our room. Winter is cold and drafty in our house, he still doesn't sleep through the night well, and I like making excuses. I suck at tough love. There, I said it. I'm terrible. It breaks my heart and I just want to make it all better, I mean he's crying because he wants to be near me. How sweet and sad is that? I feel like a terrible mom. It's weird not having him in the room with us, it's disorienting. I'm sure it's worse for him. He screamed for 8 minutes last night before passing out, and I hope it gets easier as we go on. Those 8 minutes felt like so much longer! He woke back up at 9am (normal time is 10-11) and came to bed with me for awhile for cuddles... it's progress though.
My diet has been completely off track. Ugh. I'm having a lot of trouble staying in my calories, and I know why- thanks infertility. Between the medications and the head space, I'm really struggling to maintain. I'm not even working towards losing right now! I just want to maintain... and so far, I've regained 5lbs, give or take. I'm trying to be more mindful, and to cut out sweets, but it's hard. I went months without a cookie or piece of cake before, but here I am craving something sweet every single day now. And that's not good. Arrggghhh. I can do this. I know I can. The last couple days I went a little above my calorie needs, but not too much higher, so hopefully that's a start (or re-boot?).
I really hope tomorrow goes well.