Monday, February 28, 2011

Sometimes your life is an epic fail-

This week has sucked.

Let me recap what all happened. I started a new cycle, and AF is kicking my ass. I caught a terrible cold. My precious beloved kitty died in my arms, after 12 wonderful years together. Last night at work will henceforth be known as the night from HELL; security alarms were going off, we had a tornado warning so I had to deal with that in the shelter (yeah, a few days ago we had 9 inches of snow, last night we had a horrible thunderstorm), my basement at home flooded, so did our street. Thankfully the flooding went down, and we almost had a reprieve. But we were late to our appointment for a CD3 baseline.

My CD3 baseline. You ever watch a car wreck in slow motion? Imagine that. There was a moment in the air, something thick hanging in the silence, my doctor said, "S-... Noooooo!" Yes. I knew something like this would happen. I get offered enough meds for a free cycle, you bet I'm going to end up having a cyst the size of my ovary. No joke, it is as big as my entire left ovary.

I've attracted SUPER EPIC FAIL this week. Hahahahahahahahahaha... no, seriously.

I feel very overwhelmed. I am physically feeling like crap because of my cold, and cramps from AF. And emotionally, I am heartbroken. And now, I'm just... BLLLAAAHHHH. Like, this just figures. I should have known.

I suppose there are some good points; I did get free meds for next cycle. Perhaps it's better to wait a month before the injects, it will give me time to get over my cold and loose a few more pounds. But MAN. Everything has just came at me at once, and some things there really isn't a positive in them. My cat. My night at work last night. (*sigh*)

I know perfectly well that things could be a lot worse. But when everything comes at you all at once, it's very overwhelming and hard to cope with. A lot of things went wrong, very fast, in a very short amount of time. I am exhausted and overwhelmed.

I'm going to sleep now.

Will start birth control pills in a few days to get rid of Mr. BigOle' Cysty.

12 comments:

Krista said...

I'm so sorry to hear things have been so shitty over the past days...I can't believe how much you have been dealing with. I hope over the next month things will stabalize and that you'll go into the next cycle feeling refreshed and not so stressed out. This just might be for the best no matter how difficult it is to have to wait another damn month (been there...I hate waiting even when it is for the best.)

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

Ugg...hopefully all the bad crap hit at once so now it will all be good!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your kitty and all the other bad crap going on...

staciek said...

I'm so so sorry for the loss of your sweet kitty, and for everything else that's going wrong. :( I hope things turn around really, really soon, and that you don't have to deal with anything else sucky for a long time.

Hugs...

Celia said...

Sometimes you just need to climb in bed and shut out the world. Thinking of you.

Stinky said...

wow what a shite week. Hopefully this is the last of it. Sorry about your kitty too, big love

WiseBursche said...

:-(

It has been horrible for you really.

What's with the cyst? Go take a hike, evilcyst!

Jen said...
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Melis.sa said...

Gah! ((HUGS)) I hope the last few days have been better!

Jennifer said...

Ugh So Sorry. Cysts are just like they sound. Horrible.

I'm also really sorry about your kitty. I have three kitties who are getting older and I dread the inevitable.

Hugs

birdsandsquirrels said...

Wow, what a string of crappy things dumped right into your lap. How stressful! I am so sorry about your kitty, and the storm and flooding, and the cyst.

(sorry, I left this comment signed into my other account)

I'm so glad that your RE has saved up enough meds for an injectable cycle. That is wonderful! I hope the cyst goes away quickly and that you can start the injectables next month.

loribeth said...

(((HUGS)))