Still kickin' it-

What have I gotten myself into?

Days one and two of the new plan have went... well? I set my plan into motion, determined my goals and went for it. I have stayed within my calories the past two days and I have worked out each day.

And I feel like my muscles are going to crumble beneath the weight of me. I am sooooo sore. I keep reminding myself that it's a good thing, that it's going to get easier. But, um, owwie.

I built off my old workout, the same one I used to lose weight before. Yeah, I couldn't even finish it the first day. That's how out of shape I am; a workout I used to do 3 times a week, I couldn't even complete one routine. That sucks. But I know I can do it, I've done it before. It's just going to take time.

That's what I'm hoping is going to keep me motivated- knowing that this has worked before. I have used these same methods and they've worked. Before the first miscarriage, before fertility treatments.

I know this works, I know I can do this. It wasn't easy before, and I know it's not going to be easy now, but I can do this. I have done this.

So, I took a test- it was negative. We are not surprised, right? So that means, if I did hypothetically ovulate when I thought I might have, then I should expect a new cycle Thursday. Not holding my breath, but it would be nice.

Since I got the negative, I may go ahead and start the Inositol tomorrow. Maybe it will help things along.

Otherwise, I've been meh. We canceled our cable last week and our TV feels naked. Watching lots of N.etflix and movies. It's actually kind of nice to have all that backround noise removed from our lives. We are more mindful of what we're watching, that's for sure. I do miss a few things from TV, but I'm sure I can get enough online of them to satisfy myself.

I'm feeling a little better about things, still in a bit of a funk, but feeling a little more positive. Hopefully things will continue to improve.