Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Moving forward-

I started temping, although how reliable that's going to be is questionable. V hasn't been sleeping well through the night, so I haven't been sleeping the best either. I think it should still be reliable enough though, as I used to temp even working third shift. It's still too early to know where that's going. I should be picking up some OPKs tonight though.

I have my repeat TSH draw tomorrow, and hopefully I can get a refill as I run out on Sunday. But we'll see. I don't know if I'll be able to get my insurance to cover the TSH draw, but it shouldn't be too expensive OOP (and I can later petition for reimbursement), but we may call the insurance company and try to get our ID number for straight billing too. I don't know- it's up to whether A gets around to calling them today since he has the info from his work. Either way, that should be fine.

I finally scheduled a consult with Dr. M, my potential new RE. It's for the 18th, so we just have to wait for that and go from there.

I still haven't started spotting or anything, and my temps (so far) have been around my normal pre/non-ovulatory range. Sooo, I guess I'm just not going to bleed post-BCP this time? It's been 6 days now, so that's what I'm going with.

I don't want to talk about my weight, but I'm going to. I over-indulged my birthday week, I ate way too much cake, and I've been really bloated... I gained back like 3-5lbs. I'm pretty disheartened over that, but I'm trying not to let it get me down. I'm going to pick myself back up and get back at it. I have a serious appetite problem though. I don't know if it's related to my thyroid meds, stress, or what, but I've just been starving lately. I'm finding it very difficult to stay under 1,600cal a day... I need to try harder though. I can work out all I want, but if I can't maintain my calories it's all for naught. I don't know if I'll have any loss to report at my next weigh in. I'm trying to remind myself that I'm healthier now, and that's all that's really important, but I was hoping to be closer to a healthy BMI (overweight instead of obese) by next weigh in.

It's okay though. I'm moving forward and it's going to be okay.

8 comments:

Shelby said...

AF can be a tricky beast! I hope she figures things out, but if not, you're definitely big with the forward momentum. I envy you. I can't even get an email off to my nurse. Dragging my feet over here...

I've just restarted my weight loss and it's so frustrating! I feel you! I overindulged once this weekend and the scale just shot up (even though I'd been good all week)! But I've convinced myself that bloat/water weight are a real (and mostly temporary) thing and that it is the overall average that matters. I'm trying not to let that give me license to gorge too often, though! But I'm sure that you didn't actually gain that much weight, so it'll probably drop off as soon as you've been back to eating healthy for several days.

AnotherDreamer said...

Yeah, I've been dragging my feet too honestly. I think that my biggest motivator if that I'll need certain prescriptions if we move forward though (like progesterone and more synthroid)...

And girl, I'm really hoping my weight gain is just bloat and water weight. I feel like my pants are a little snugger, and it's messing with my sense of accomplishment.

Melis.sa said...

I would get like that too even when I was at a healthy weight. There'd be a week where I could not satisfy my hunger and I'd go up 3-5 lbs and then the next week I'd lose it all. I'm sure the stress of TTC and not sleeping well factor in there.

I hope AF comes? BCP are such a pain in the arse.

Stinky said...

wonder if that 3-5lb is hormonal - coming off BCP (and maybe helped by birthday cake in a way that normally you wouldn't have retained?)

You're right, healthier is definitely more important than number-tracking, but I do understand how important watching the number go down is

jessiwallace said...

This is the first time I actually make it past 3 days of temping, LOL! It looks like a bomb went off to me and I do not understand it AT ALL but I guess we'll see. We're actually in our 6th round of TTC already... I haven't really blogged that since certain people are now reading it. :oP LOL Good luck to you on TTC #2!! Maybe we'll both be blessed this year. :o)

An Aspiring Mom-To-Be said...

Periods! So ridiculous! I hope things settle out and AF finally shows up. Post-BCP is so frustrating. I wonder if the bloating, hunger, and weight gain are more related to that?

I'm excited to hear about your new RE. I'm really hoping that Dr. M is a good match for you.

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Ugh, weight loss is so hard especially when you are contending with hormonal issues to boot. Good luck with the temping, I know some people really dig it and swear by it.

Rebecca said...

Dieting is hard to do under stress. I've gained back a few too.