Thursday, September 23, 2010

Chilling-

I want to thank all of you who commented on my previous post- you're my voice of reason. I am not expecting much from this cycle, but I am just going to chill and see what happens. I start my progesterone supplements tonight.

We went to see the new nephew tonight too. Conversation was pretty awkward, but otherwise the visit went okay. I haven't held a baby in years. It was weird feeling that weight in my arms, feeling that warmth. A- had actually never held a baby before today- we've had nieces and nephews since we got married, but he's never held a baby. They intimidate him, I think, since he has no experience with them. It was hard seeing him sitting there holding the baby, and knowing that he should have held our own children a long time ago.

We didn't stay long, and I'm glad it's over with. Lots of things processing and running through my mind... I'm going to wait for them to process a little more, before I post about them.

7 comments:

Heather said...

That's hard seeing your husband holding someone elses baby. I feel your pain! Try to keep your chin up about this cycle even though I know its hard! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!

WiseGuy said...

Saw A-'s pic with the nephew on FB...

Don't thank us...you have been very supportive as well.

I don't want to be the bucket of cold water, and I don't want to be the false cushion...I hope to say 'Yay!' soon in your blog...

Katie said...

As Heather said, watching your husband hold a baby that isn't yours can be painful. I completely understand. I hope that your husband (and mine!) is able to hold a baby in his arms soon that he can call his son or daughter. Fingers crossed for this 2WW!

Melis.sa said...

((HUG)) I'm still hopeful :) Being chill is the way to go!

Negative Nelly said...

Totally painful and raw. It's good that you didn't avoid it though. We go to visit my in-laws during christmas and our nephew will be born (hopefully). Our due date was one week apart in December. Looking forward to that :)

MK said...

Oh how well I know the pain of seeing my husband holding a baby and knowing he wishes we had our own.
Wish I could hug you!

Heather said...

That must be so hard..
I'm sure all that stuff is going through your head..
I also watched my hubby hold a baby a while back when we went to visit a friend in hospital who had just had a baby. Well.. what can you do... some people have babies and .. others struggle..
Good luck with your IUI.. thinking of you..