Monday, January 17, 2011

New Year, new plans-

We've postponed doing anything reproduction-wise until next year. Yes, you read that, an entire year free from the shackles of infertility. We won't be preventing, unless I break down and decide I'd rather be on birth control pills to keep my PCOS in check (which I very well may), but for now... not preventing. We'll see if I manage to ovulate on my own again (highly doubtful, but time will tell).

We decided that this year will be for us, to take risks, to take trips, to see what's out there. My husband has become increasingly unhappy at his job, and his job has become increasingly unstable, which caused more stress for him. So since we've stopped treatments, I've given him the green light to see what else is out there. He'd been hanging onto his current job for the health insurance and pay, but I think it's time to take a risk. I'm also beginning to put feelers out for a job, I'm ready to branch out from my current position. It's scary. I haven't applied anywhere for over two years because I've been complacent to just stay here, but I need something better, more hours, better pay. So I'm going to see what's out there too.

Fingers crossed that we don't both just fall on our faces.

I'm also planning several trips within the state for the spring/summer. We'll be going to our only National Park in Cuhoyoga, the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, Hocking Hills, and who knows where else. Plans are still being made, nothing solidified yet. I'm excited about these plans, and I am hoping very much that they don't fall through.

It's liberating that we're going to open ourselves up to so much possibility, but it's scary too. We've spent so long living with these limitations- when we can go somewhere, what we can afford to do, what risks we can take- that I forgot how exciting life can be. I mean, the last few years we've mostly expected failure, with just a little adventure mixed in. But now, it's all an adventure on untraveled roads.

And I'm so nervous.

I wish I knew what was going to happen next... let's just hope for the best, shall we?

10 comments:

unaffected said...

I think your decision to take a year off will be wonderful for you both. Being unhappy 40 hours a week at work is no fun, and can definitely take a toll on your home life. Best of luck with your plans this year, and I hope you still keep us posted! :)

Celia said...

That is wonderful and exciting and scary, which is how life should be!

Connie's Confessions said...

Have fun! And who knows, the relaxation may be more benificial than you think! :)

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

Sounds like a wonderful plan! This will be a great year for you guys!

mrskateski said...

It's so freeing isn't it? Dh and I took the year off (mostly to pay off our debt), but when I finally realized that meant I didn't need to worry about tracking my cycle (although, let's be honest, that habit will be hard to break) or when I had to be at the Doctors life became interesting again. It's hard not to feel guilty for not 'doing something' to expand our family, but I'm hoping this year will help remind us of what life was like before IF snatched it from us. Hopefully you'll find the same inner peace throughout the year....and go on some great vacations! :)

Melis.sa said...

The trips sound awesome! I hope you and your dh find better matches as far as work goes!!

A. said...

I hope this year is liberating and wonderful and that all of your wildest dreams will come true:)

birdsandsquirrels said...

Good for you! The trips sound wonderful. IF certainly sucked the adventure out of our lives. It's damn near impossible to plan trips when you are at the doctor for monitoring all the time. I wish you both good luck on the job front. It is so scary to make a change, but it sounds like now is a good time to do it.

iamstacey said...

oh my gosh, it's so exciting! I'm so glad you both are making such a huge decsion together and you both feel good about it. That means it's the right decision!

It was so scary when my hubby changed jobs. But it was the best move he ever could have made! It was in the same field, but he went from misery and hating life to being excited, motivated and full of energy! Even our sex life got better! Who would've thought a guy's job would affect all the areas of his life so much?

That being said, I really hate job hunting. I'm a creature of habit, I fear change. But it's coming for me, too. I've gotta find something closer so we don't have to spend so much on gas each month.

Kristin said...

I really hope you and your husband have a truly amazing year filled with love, laughter, joy, and surprises.