Technically it's still early, but I feel out. I've always had a positive by now, if it was going to be a positive at all. I mean I could be surprised, but I don't think I will.
This is new for me. I've gotten pregnant on every other ovulatory cycle (8 months apart, but still it was every other ovulatory cycle). Here I am now with three ovulatory cycles, and no pregnancies. I know the odds of conceiving even on fertility treatments are still only like 25%, but I had managed to get pregnant so easily once we got my ovaries doing something. But not now. For me, it's not quite as disheartening as not responding to the treatments at all- but it's still disheartening. In a different way- by ovulating and not getting pregnant I get dragged back through this with the hopes of ovulating again, and maybe this time, maybe this time...
Then again maybe I'm looking at this wrong, maybe the universe is actually being kind. No, seriously. At least this way I can't have another miscarriage, right?
Next cycle, if we get the go ahead, we'll use the Femara again I think. I don't know how well I'll respond to it though, as I only made one follicle this time. And I do have a history of responding to something, and then just suddenly not responding to it anymore. It's frustrating.
I'm feeling rather depressed these days- I'm letting the financial issues of adoption overwhelm me. I was doing well there for awhile- but then I got to thinking about it again and it just seems like the time it will take is so far into the future, I may never reach it. Overwhelming. Deep breathes though, right? It will all be okay... I hope.
I think I'm going to start trying to take walks again, maybe it will help clear my mind (and if nothing else, maybe it will help my waistline).