Wednesday, June 16, 2010

This cycle SUCKS-

The title says it all.

It started out well enough- I responded to the Femara, I had one mature follicle, we triggered.

And then it went to hell in a hand basket.

Now maybe it's because of the Femara, or something weird is going on with my thermometer (highly doubt that, as it seemed to work fine when I tested it)... but in my 2 years of charting my basal body temperature, I like to think I've got my body figured out to a science. I know that after the trigger that temps aren't always reliable, I've charted after the trigger every single time- for me the temps always sky rocket and generally start high and rocky for 3 days before calming the fuck down (and then they still stayed above the coverline). So I was expecting that this time... and what did I get? No temp rise at all. Tuesday was five days after the trigger, and still no temp rise.

I would say that I am freaking out, but that would be an understatement.

Yeah, I know that some women will experience this and most people say to just stop temping while being monitored because the temps aren't as accurate- but in the past 2 years, with all these cycles, my BBT has always been accurate. Trigger or no trigger, medicated or not, ovulatory or anovulatory... it's always been accurate. I don't know what to think, unless the Femara made it extra wonky or there is just something else going on altogether...

I am frustrated.

I am also very emotional right now, and I keep almost crying at the drop of a hat. Is it the medicine, is it the frustration, the worry, the unknown, the timing of everything, the realization that I should have been due in 3 weeks with my last miscarriage- I don't know, but I am tried of feeling like this.

I got my doctor to agree to giving me a progesterone draw on Friday- because otherwise I am just going to drive myself insane. I started my progesterone vaginal supplements tonight, and I'm told it shouldn't affect the progesterone blood serum levels... so we'll see.

I feel like I am going batty and over-analyzing this, but seriously... this worries me.

Also, I've been having some cramping like I get pre-new cycle...
That's not helping one freakin' bit!

This cycle blows, and I just want it to be over with already.
I think I prefer my Clomid cycles now... (*sigh*)

Reminder: The free book drawing is still going on, and I haven't had any entries yet. Deadline is the 28th- free ttc book up for grabs! See previous post for details and to enter.


WiseGuy said...

I did not enter for the book, because I feel awkward about it...

Ack at how Femara has been acting out for you....that progesterone draw should be able to clear the air a bit..

Keeping you in my thoughts...

CeCe said...

Ugh, sounds rough. Hang in there! Big hugs to you!

Kristin said...

{{{Hugs}}} sweetie...I'm sorry it is driving you crazy.

Lavender Luz said...

I hope you get some good news about this cycle, AD.

Anonymous said...

My Femara cycle was different from my clomid cycles. The Femera was much better in terms of less side effects, but I wasn't even sure that I had ovulated on the Femara cycle. However, that cycle resulted in Birdie, so something must have gone right. My clinic always had me start vaginal prometrium at 3do, so I never knew if temps were accurate.

I know how frustrating it is to be in the middle of a cycle and not know what is going on. I hope that you get ovulation confirmation with blood work this week. I really really hope you are emotional and crampy because this cycle worked and an embryo is implanting right now.

janis said...

sending good, good thoughts your way.
Hang in there!!

Michelle said...

I am so sorry! I know it is frustrating! Hang in there...sending lots of hugs!

Bluebird said...

I'm sorry honey. I don't really have anything worthwhile to say; just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you. . . ((Hugs))