I am blog slacking... not just at posting here but commenting on others. However, I am reading and thinking about everyone.
I've been so absorbed, and swallowed up, by my current course load at the university... that I can hardly find time to watch television right now. I can't even seem to find time to clean. I think I may have taken on more than I can handle this quarter... but no matter. I switched one of the classes to pass/fail, thereby eliminating one research paper and lots of pressure. Hopefully it will be easier from here on out.
I am on cycle day 8 now. Waiting for something to happen, or to not happen.
I can really tell how the years of trying to concieve have affected me, when it gets to this part of my cycle. The follicular phase, which in my case almost always ends up being the "ovaries-do-nothing" phase. Because they don't normally do anything, and even if they start to they just don't seem to want to follow through.
I feel like screaming, "Ovaries, I am begging you! Please, just give me one damn egg."
Not that it would do any good to do so... but I do think screaming is in order.
Lots of woman do fertility treatments, and ovulate wonderfully. Even if they don't get pregnant that cycle, I can't help but feel jealous of them. They actually had a chance, a possibility of pregnancy... I don't even get that.
Ungh. Self pity looks so ugly on me.
I decided to at least try and be positive this cycle. I'll let you know how that goes.