Wednesday, December 17, 2008

If it's not one thing, it's another.

I am at an impasse again.

I am sick, stressed out, so tired.

I'm probably going to be sick for about 2 weeks, since that seems to be how long the common cold takes to leave my system. A- is getting his abscessed tooth removed on Friday. And cycle day one is nearly upon us, I'm sure it will finally be here soon. I'm spotting finally.

And since neither A- or I are going to be in the baby making mood for at least a week to two weeks... I don't see the point in giving the Clomid a go this month. So I decided to wait until January to try it again.

However, I am going to give Soy a try this month. What do I have to lose? It will at least make me feel like I'm doing something, instead of sitting around doing nothing. Besides, I've been curious about it.

Another issue... A-'s dental surgery might not be covered by his insurance... because they're big jerk-faces. It's a long aggravating story, and I don't feel like going into it right now. Anyways... there goes $500 of our injectable funds. So much for that.

Maybe I can still save up the money by summer, but I'm starting to think about maybe trying to get a home loan instead... I would like to move someplace better. Someplace I can relax, somewhere in the country. I hate living so close to my neighbors, I hate this house, I hate all the memories that are building here.

But then I'd have to wait longer to try injectables.

I've got a lot on my plate right now. My EDD for my loss is approaching, my birthday, another wasted cycle, stupid Holidays, a new year, being sick, A-'s surgery to remove that darn tooth... I'm all discombobulated.



Michelle said...

Sorry about DH tooth and you not feeling well. Hope you both feel better soon. January is not far away. Try to enjoy the ast part of 2008...thank God it is almost outta here!

The Steadfast Warrior said...

HUGS! I know how overwhelming it can be. And an approaching Loss EDD makes it even worse. My 1st is coming up in January too. It sucks. So BIG HUGS. And rant away all you need to. I always feel a little better after.

Cara said...

Those crazy icky, blegh weeks are torture to get through, but then - there is only one place to go...up! Back to a good place!

Hope the soy works for you.

Celia said...


I just wanted to give you a tiny bit of good news. I had that problem with my mouth too,and I felt 100% in two days.

So sorry for your cold.

Penny said...

Sorry to hear about the EDD loss. A tooth abcess is the worst, they really do a number on ya.

Get some rest and good dental fixin's.

janis said...

((hugs)) Take good care, and be gentle with yourself.

Guera! said...

Oh, I am sorry about that. Sending hugs your way. And thank you for you very encouraging comment on my most recent post.

birdsandsquirrels said...

I'm so sorry that you are feeling terrible. I totally understand passing on the clomid this month. When you feel that bad already, adding the clomid side effects would be miserable. Good luck with the soy. There IS a lot on your plate right now. Any one of those would be stressful, and all of them together just really sucks. I'm thinking of you and sending hugs your way.