I've been having a few rough nights; I'm tired, and I sometimes feel like crying. Heck, sometimes I do. Here lately V's hit a rough patch where around midnight he has a breakdown and all he does is cry. Not just a little, but heart wrenching sobs and screams. And the only thing that consoles him is me holding him and swaying or walking around. And it has to be me, A is not an acceptable alternative. Eventually V falls asleep, and I hold him for as long as I can but eventually my arms get tired (and let's be honest I need to sleep too) so I lay him down. And then he wakes up within minutes because he realizes what I did. And we're back at it again, until his next feeding.
Just a week ago he was sleeping through the night. I don't know if we've just hit a rough patch, or he's going through a growth spurt, or what, but we're trying to figure it out. In the meantime, I am EXHAUSTED.
I've been wondering if it was related to his formula (we've had to supplement more and more as my supply TANKED)... but I don't think it's that. Not gas either, I've given him gas drops. He just has this intense need to be held, and it goes on allllll night.
As for the breast feeding... well, there's a distinct lack of that going on. I've talked to a lactation consultant and my OB, and the general consensus is blame PCOS. Alright, I can do that. We decided to try and increase my supply first, since it's incredibly low, then (maybe) address the latch issues. So, I've started medication to increase my supply, and it's made some difference. I'm still not making enough, but it's the difference of supplementing a little bit of formula and supplementing a lot. I still don't know how much longer I'm going to breast feed, but I have my prescription for now and supplements on hand, and we'll go from there.
So that's what's not so great lately.
But on the other hand, he's started to acknowledge his mobile above his bassinet. He absolutely loves that thing. When we turn it on, and he just smiles and starts laughing. He giggles and "talks" to it, and when it turns off he starts crying... then we turn it on, he's good again. He talks to those bears way more than he does to us. I don't know what's up with that, but it's ADORABLE.
I live for moments like that.