Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Coming full circle-

We've begun home repairs and room rearrangements to make room for this baby. The room that was once intended to be a nursery, might be one yet.

It strange, watching it come full circle. After we lost the first baby, I claimed the room for my own because it was easier than seeing it represent everything we lost. I slathered on the paint, piled in my things, and it felt good to fill up it's emptiness. It became my art room, my library, my office, maybe it's easier to say it was just... my room. I went there when I was angry, when I needed to cry, when my grief from our infertility and our losses was too much to bear and I needed to paint, to write, to draw, anything in an attempt to cope with things.

Three years after I took it back, it's hard to believe that it might actually serve it's original intended purpose.

9 comments:

Rebecca said...

I really hope it soon will be the nursery of your dreams. Right now I'm using the second bedroom for an office too.

Melis.sa said...

:) it'll still be your room, there will just be an adorable little person sharing it with you :)

loribeth said...

This post made me smile! : )

Shannon Ivy said...

That's awesome! I'm so proud of you (and Nombie) for making it this far! I hope to one day be able to convert "my" room into a nursery too... One day :o)

Don't forget pictures! Belly pictures, nursery pictures, anything!

Groves said...

I loved what Melis.sa said. Yes - an adorable little person sharing your room. That is what I am hoping for, too. Sweet little Nombie!!

Cathy in Missouri

birdsandsquirrels said...

Aww, this post made my heart so happy! I am so so glad this is happening for you!

Stacy said...

Yay, you will have to post pics of the nursery : )

St Elsewhere said...

So happy. And so glad that THAT moment in your life has come.

I hope and pray for Nombie's safe arrival.


xoxo

iamstacey said...

You called Nombie 'this baby.' Look at you! I'm so excited to see YOU getting excited! We called the extra room the Guest Room right up 'til the last trimester, 'cause I just couldn't imagine it really ever being a nursery!